sana nga ikaw na...

ang tagal kong naghintay ng special someone sa buhay ko. akala ko sya na, sana nga sya na... ang dami ko nang na-meet. pero wala talagang nag match skin... hangang i met someone when i was started working. grabe! as in first attraction pa lng iba na. im a person not easy to have crush but w/ this guy, ewan ko ba. sabi ng iba babaero daw sya, mukha nga. but when i met him grabe ang sweet nya! super gentleman and wlang yabang sa katawan. e di lalo nmang na in-love ang lola mo... but secretly...time goes and my feelings grow deeply. everyday ba naman eh kaharap mo sa office. and one time lumabas sya from the conference to get something to his table and asking me ilan taon na daw ako, ngek! nagulat nman ako and he finds me pretty. pede daw akong sumali sa beauty pagent! hehehe! loko loko tlaga! and one time din nakatitig sya skin ng lumabas ako sa canteen tapat ng court ng cmpany nmin. grabe parang feeling ko malalaglag ang undies ko. para bang m.u. daw kami? and after 2 months i decided to resign kasi may mas magandang offer skin w/ other cmpany. ska lng sya nagparamdam skin. last day of my work was despidida of our 1 co-employee and pinilit nya yung fren ko na isama ako w/ the over night and sumama nman ako for one last time w/ him. super sweet nya tlaga, he gave me towel to keep me safe from cold night and stole pic skin and munitk na kaming magsalo sa isang plate kaya lng ang arte ko kasi. grabe parang nasa langit ako w/ that night!umuwi akong tulala... sna nga sya na sabi ko sa sarili ko...after two days bumalik ako sa office to get some things that i left and to fix some paper works to endorse, you know what? he gave me angel as souvenir daw and a calling card na hindi ko naman hinihingi and he ask me to wait for him in 10 minutes sabay na daw kami and kinain nya ko sa chowking! grabe! sa ayaw nyot hindi, sya ang first memorable date ko tlga! hirap na hirap nga syang magsabi na sabay na kami pauwi pero syempre pakipot pa daw ako... after that day, wla lng hindi nako bumalik sa cmpny na yon and everything was nothing... ang sakit ano? i was thinking na sya na and he will court me pero bakit ganon after that moment ganon na lng. sabi ng friend ko bka daw kung hindi ako nag resign bka may balak sya kaya ng nag resign nako ayaw nya na rin. ganon ba talaga? i was broke into pieces everytime i remember him. nag iisip na sana i have courage to ask him kaya lng parang hindi ko yata talaga kaya yon. hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko at those moment. first time ko ma in-love then hindi pala sya sure or may be he just playing or baka nman illusion ko lng ang lahat. sobrang sakit unitl now... lalo na sometimes i saw some friends related to him...wla nman na akong magawa... minsan nagpaparamdam nga pala sya sa email. tipong sasagot minsan or not. ayoko ng mauna mag email kasi ayoko ng lalo pakong masaktan tma na yon. i just keep memories na lng siguro and he's not mean for me pero ewan ko kung bkit lahat na lng ng dumadating lagi ko na lng compare sa kanya. sna lng dumating yung panahon na matagpuan ko din yong totoong para sa akin...sumtimes its hrd to let go of sum1 hu has touched ur life but it hurts more to let go of some1 hu is nvr urs yet changed ur life the most...